What's the big deal? How is being hypnotized to obey so different from simply being a very devoted submissive?
Since now i'm a bit of both i thought i'd try and tackle the subtle and sometimes not so subtle differences here.
When i first met Sir, we started things out slowly, testing the waters and building trust. Much like any Dom/sub relationship, as we got more comfortable with one another we pushed further. Being a fairly naturally obedient sub, giving over to Him came easily for me with time. There is not much that He would have asked of me that i would not have obeyed.
So ... when we started talking about trance and hypnosis, it was strange that i would be fearful. After all, i already trusted Him to guide and play with my body. After much consideration, it became clear that my fear came from the magnitude of power i would be giving up.
You may wonder why this is so different, so powerful, if i was going to obey Him anyway. For me, the difference is this ...
Before trance, it was a conscious choice to obey, and i knew exactly what i was doing every single time. As a sub, i still had my own thoughts, my own feelings, and my own objections that could be voiced at appropriate moments.
But if i was to give in to the trance, to His voice, He would have free rein to play inside my head. At a moment's notice, He could have me do nearly anything and i would literally be unable to disobey.
After weighing each side pretty carefully, i threw away all the arguments and went with my gut instead of my head like i usually do. i leapt. i gave in, and trusted that while He might push me, He enjoyed playing with me and wasn't going to do anything to ruin that.
Now i just obey, regardless. No thought, no hesitation. It just happens -- and often i don't remember until He allows me to recall it.
The difference is in that moment of hesitation. Before, i needed to think about it, process it and consciously obey. Now ... it just is.
It may seem scary. And quite often i am still in complete awe of what He has achieved, but the power of it is actually somewhat comforting. He still keeps me safe, yet can take me toe to the line, a hair's breadth from my limits, with just a few carefully placed words.
On the flip side, He can take me to a place of such deep relaxation that absolutely everything else in my life falls away. i can literally be a pet at His feet. He can take me away from laundry and dishes and taxes by turning my into a puppy whose only thoughts are of love and cuddles and pleasure. He can change my senses, withhold sensation and turn me into His complete and utter plaything at will.
Without trance this would not be possible, i couldn't have let go that completely.
He has taken me places i never thought i would go. With His words and His incredibly inventive imagination he has gotten further into my head than anyone i have ever known.